Self harm is not a trend. Anorexia is not a phase. Depression is not an act. Homosexuality is not a choice. Sexual assault is not provoked. Suicide is not the result of cowardice. Grow up. I am so sick and tired of people picking on others because of a disorder or choice. If a friend is cutting - you help them, you don’t just point at them and call them ‘fucking emo’. If someone is gay, what the fuck is it to you? Seriously, it’s not necessary that you embrace that fact, you just have to accept it. It’s there and it will continue to exist whether you like it or not. Fuck.
(Source: curiosity-killed-the-inn0cent)
Today was going well with 400 calories around 10am and at 8:30 it’s completely destroyed. Well tomorrow should be better. Oh, wait… I have to try on dresses and look hideous.
I want a blade. I want a bottle of vodka. I want a bag full of different drugs. I want to be left alone in my room. I want to blast my music as loud as I can. I want to watch my skin tear apart. I want to watch blood drip from my body. I want my vision to get blurry. I want to be so fucking high that I can’t move. I want to numb out the world and visit Wonderland. I want to forget any worries.
(Source: captainyasmin)
Sway
I came up with a pretty fun recipe the other day that was pretty much zero calories. It can be difficult to find warm meals that aren’t immediately heavy but if you take celery stalks and take a pearing knife and cut vertically down the stalk so they’re kind of like celery noodles. Then put them in a pan with a bit of water and add either Worcestershire sauce and/or soy sauce with seasonings like salt or garlic powder. After, they taste kind of like water chestnufs. If you’re a bit like me and don’t care for the taste of raw celery this tastes pretty good and 2 stalks makes for a very filling meal.
It was great last night hearing my two friends talk about how annoying it is when their doctor says they’re underweight even though they eat so much. I just awkwardly, fatly stood there.
About me
16:: AliceCW: 117
HW: 121
LW: 110
GW: 100
5'3"
Life has been rather cold and horrid these past couple years, and right now I'm focused on losing some weight for this coming year. The insecurities are growing, and there's a change on the horizon.
I shall try to update this blog at the end on the day as to keep up with my eating habits off paper for it's easier to keep track. I am not pro-anorexia or pro-self-harm. To wish such a harmful habits on others is horrible.
Thank You.
